Tomorrow...

Tomorrow holds an unknown day. I am going back to work at an elementary school. I don't know what the day will hold. Will my kids be okay? Will they express their parents' fears as their own? Will they have wrenching fears of their own? I don't know. I will try to reassure their sense of safety. I will try to let them know that I am there to keep them safe. But, I don't know what tomorrow holds. I pray that they come to school as happy-go-lucky children as children should.

Going back to school

Moms dread and celebrate these words (I can admit others' secrets on this, I'm a teacher). But, I am doing it now as an adult. I am excited about the prospects. But, I am completely stressed and anxious about the change in job and having to time the finishing of my classes just right. I have only been taking 2 classes at a time. But, starting this week, I will be taking 4 classes. This will continue for the next 3 weeks. I may be at my nervous breaking point by next week.

At the end of this long tunnel (of college classes and teaching elementary school at the same time), I see a light with new opportunities. I will work 9-5, Monday-Friday. I will get to leave at the end of the day and any stress will stay there. I won't have to worry about my kids, have to think of new ideas to teach them better, or need to come up with ways to earn more money for the school. I will get to live life outside of school and not feel guilty that I am not dedicating enough of myself.

Teaching is not what it was. Teachers are blamed for everything. People who have never worked with children are the ones making the decision as to what I am supposed to teach. People who won't provide the money for my class is expecting my to have things in my room that cost me. Last year, I was expected to teach reading without books! I feel that teaching is not the esteemed profession that it used to be and it is not getting any better. It is time for me to move on.

Okay, I am done ranting about teaching. I am now also in the position of learning. I like learning. But, it is funny being a teacher and learning from people who got into the profession they teach without ever learning to teach. I have had a couple of professors that I have wanted to shake and say "you don't have basic social skills, you don't teach if you can't interact with other people!" HAHA. Oh, well.  Luckily, I have the book.

Christmas shopping is almost complete!

I have to pick up 2 items that I have ordered on Friday and I have completed my Christmas shopping. I haven't hit the budget too hard, so yay for me! It's funny, we actually didn't get my husband's brothers gift card this  year. They will be in shock. They are much younger than my husband. Teenagers, what do you get them. But, they are getting older, so it has made it a little easier to shop for them.

I hope you have a wonderful day. Hope to talk to you again soon.